My interview at Virginia Tech felt pretty good, but I am also hesitant to put too much hope into how good I felt after the interview and how well I got along with people, and how I perceived their impressions of me. I felt great after Mars Hill but that fell through. I don't want to hope too much and find I am wrong, again.
Anyway, I need to send out more applications. I haven't heard from but two of the ones I sent information out to in mid-May. I just saw an announcement for a position at LSU (Baton Rouge, LA) and although the deadline was June 13, it looks like they are still accepting applications. It is not New Orleans, but its fairly close (an hour and a half away). I just don't know if I want to go back to the Deep South just yet, though I miss New Orleans.
According to the search committee at VA Tech, they won't be able to offer the positions to anyone until the end of July, mid-July at the earliest.
My position at ACA is/was supposed to conclude at the end of June. That's two weeks away. I cannot talk to anyone about making other arrangements to work through the end of July because one of those individuals is on vacation until next Monday and the other does not start work as the new President until July 1st. Is it possible? Maybe, but its unclear right now and that makes me feel unbalanced and nervous to know what's going to happen.
I have been thinking about my living arrangement. Thinking positively that I will get the job and will move to Blacksburg, VA, at the end of July/first week of August, I "could" stay in my apartment through the end of July, but that's $450 rent and other bills, too. That's money I will need for moving to VA (or elsewhere).
If I move out at the end of June, I will have June's paycheck and (if I work for ACA in July) July's paycheck. That would be enough to put down a month's rent and deposit and move my possessions to VA.
So... where would I move at the end of this month? Who do I know who have houses/apartments that could use an apartment/house-mate for a month? There's a couple of people I can ask... Its complicated. I need to catch up with them and see what possibilities there might be. One person I think I would feel most comfortable with but when their original housemate comes back and (thinking negatively) I don't get the job at VA Tech, then I still have to move again, somewhere.... If I share with another friend, relatively new to the area woman who's going through a lot of stuff, I might have more lee-way in how long I can stay. Plus, she's got a garden and I could put in some time helping with that, maybe?
I don't know who else I could ask... Of course, I wouldn't want to share without giving SOME rent (or barter gardening, housework, cooking, etc), just not the entire $450 I would have had to give at the apartment complex.
*sigh*
Uncertainty pulls at my veins and arteries and makes me feel like a stretched out rubber band, ready to snap in half because I'm weak or ready to split the air as I throw myself into motion. How can it be that I am both?
I trust that everything will fall into place.
My need to have control over it has to lessen in order for it all to work out.
Patience to hear back from the VA Tech search committee.
Patience to find a space for transition.
Patience to find the right work environment.
Patience for moving on from this place I don't yet want to give up, and
patience for settling into a new place in which I am unfamiliar and alien.
I trust that everything will fall into place.
