My writing has been stagnant for the last 2 years. When I first moved here I was still trudging down the country road of Rise When the Rooster Crows,
a collection of poems about love, hard work, disappointment, hope,
resentment, and making new memories out of the tattered remains of the
old ones. There were gaps in the story to imagine and fill, so I had a
map by which to continue walking as I write. That lasted for a year
until I felt the collection was complete, edited several times (read:
many times). I packed up my belongings and moved into the place I was
currently living.
Now I look around and I see a big city pulsating
with buildings, roads that need repair, music in living rooms, craft
fairs in the streets, farmers' markets on nearly every day of the week,
restaurants that beg for a lunch date, museum exhibitions whispering to
visit before they travel onward, art receptions and wine tastings to
meander, and coffee houses to hide in for a few moments to think, write,
listen to music, and maybe chat with a new friend. Oklahoma City is a
good place no matter how much I miss what I remember about Berea,
Kentucky, a place that is quickly changing and erasing any resemblance
of concrete memories I revisit emotionally from time to time.
So
for two years I have not felt drawn to a particular writing project or
theme. My hand is lonesome for writing words. When I first moved to
Kentucky I didn't write much either, until I read an obituary which
struck me. It was about the cholera epidemic of the early 1830s in the
Eastern State Hospital, also referred to as an insane asylum to some. I
researched other deaths in the area, and began writing poems in the
voice of similar people experiencing similar fates, though some poems
were historic persons such a Laura Clay. Thirty poems later -- Lexington Lives
-- and I was done; The collection was largely based on research but it
provided a foundation which enabled me to explore a new map for the next
collection, resulting in Rise When the Rooster Crows. I had
made some friends in the English department at the local college and had
a niche for feeling as though I was a writer, a poet, a person of
words. Since moving to Oklahoma I have very slowly found individuals
who correspond to these seats in my circle, though I have yet to make it
feel as though they are family. That may take more time.
Over
the course of the last six months I have begun paving a new map, also
based on researched information for the basis of poetic imagery, themes,
voices, and memories, but nonetheless, I may have finally opened the
door to Oklahoma. The new idea, which involves oral histories about
centennial farms, may provide an aerial view of the place I am beginning
to know and accept. Through their stories, and through the people I am
beginning to know and love, I may begin a new map to draw out by hand
in poetic verse, lines that will weave across the printed page to tell
stories I hope Oklahomans will recognize, verify, and accept. I think I
have a few friends here who will honestly tell me when I have strayed
and when I have revealed a true-to-the-region voice sharing his or her
story.
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